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it has been one year since i have spoken to her. one year that i haven't held her hand or laid next to her or kissed her forehead between class periods. it has been one year since she had caressed my scars and told me to get better for her. it has been one year since anyone has ever said they loved me in that sort of connotation--the serious type. it has been one year since her. one year since i realized how empty my life was without her in it, one year since i thought she was my Forever Person. my life has gotten better, sure, but it's still lacking one thing. her. she's not there even though she's omnipresent. i just want to hold her again. i want her to give me the butterflies again, both on my wrists and in my stomach. i want her back. and goddamnit, she'll never take me. she sees a monster. even after a year of contemplation, 365 days without me. she eliminated me like she was deleting a text message. it was that simple. it was like the time we spent together hadn't even existed even though i fucking loved that bitch more than anything. she has ruined me even a year beyond her departure. and not a day goes by that i don't feel sad for her and for myself, call it a pity party but i don't care. i had gone after others but they are all ending the same way, platonically ending friendships. i thought i had found another but she was just a smaller version of her. they're all variations but it's not the same. they're just nobodies. i don't want a nobody. i just on can't take this life without a Somebody anymore. i need a Somebody. i need hannah back. but lord knows and the world knows she never will, even though she knows how much i need her to. now it's year two. and the pain's just going to worsen from here.

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Carina Nicole
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Okay. I know that no one reads these, so I'll keep this short and sweet. I'm a quirky bookworm with an obsession of poetry, indie music, and Broadway shows. I enjoy writing. A lot. Also: I have the dearest friends in the world, whom I love greatly and would die without.

I guess if you'd like to know more, you could follow me. *grin*
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angelichope Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2014
Happy Birthday, Carina!!!:heart:
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InsanePacladyFriend Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2014
I MISS YOOOU </3
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otakuplaywright Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
bby omg i miss you so much come to murrica.
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InsanePacladyFriend Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014
oh bby gurl I miss you tooo and I really want to, come to London.
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